Abyss

Sometimes I am amazed how people are not able to see how their mind works - what are their beliefs/dreams/desires and fears based on. It may be that observing the mind has become so evident for me that it’s difficult to understand how it is not as evident to all others. It may also be that some people never want to take a look into abyss (reminding of quote of Nietzsche: “When you look into an abyss, the abyss also looks into you”) because of fear what they might find from there.

Rebellious spirit. This is what is really missing. To ask – not from the society, from anyone else but from yourself – “why” and “what is that” questions over and over again. Not in order to get any answers but to see that answers that your mind had already created have no basis at all. By doing that everything crumbles. All barriers are broken, systems destroyed, beliefs crushed and dreams vanished. It’s a step into freedom, into that what word “freedom” is really pointing at. But already saying something like this scares people because they would not like to lose their dreams and beliefs. And as long as they’re clinging on those ideas, they do not see what those ideas are about, just merely clinging in illusions.

Responsibility. I have already written about this. Responsibility is the thing that is born from rebellious spirit. When you see that it is your mind is responsible from your suffering, that it’s none of those external factors you so often like to blame. It does not mean that one should start hating the mind, hating yourself or anything like that at all. When you actually see that suffering is merely a flip side of the same coin, that coin being wholeness of desire & fear and pleasure, then there is a beautiful change that I do not even try to describe.