Drunk

It's friday evening and I am drunk.

It reminds me that most of my life when I have lived on my own (that is since 1999), I have made a pattern of drinking on friday night. Whether it has been because I have been studying or working hard all week and wanting to take a break from it or just because I have become used to drink on certain schedule does not really matter. Drinking is somewhat spiritual experience to me (and to many people). I also feel more imaginative when I am drunk (and more social of course). I have became drunk on almost every place where I have travelled. Now let's see, I have been drunk in Spain, Russia, Israel, Egypt, Estonia, Belgium, Poland, Denmark, Ireland, USA, Czech, Singapore, Hong Kong, Thailand, Laos, Cambodia and Nepal. So that leaves Latvia, Germany, France, England and Malaysia where I haven't been drunk.

Some people really change a lot when they became drunk. They lose their control and say things that they would never say without drinking. That's not the case with me, the control (in a form that I don't get crazy in a "bad" way) always exists but other than that I become free - no inhibitions, restrictions and ideas. Of course getting drunk is not any solution to this kind of freedom, it's just a shortcut and has it's own disadvantages. It gives a taste how it's really like when your mind is free. Some people become alcoholics as they just can't imagine a life without that feeling of freedom. Some people use drugs for the very same reason. And me? I just enjoy it - sometimes with substances and sometimes without them.