Jump

Don't Look Before You Leap

This is quote from Osho, which I have already mentioned once in my earlier entries. It's been in my mind lately. Mind is full of fear, hesitation and worrying. That's just nature of mind. Therefore whenever people are facing some decision or just thinking about something, which is new & unknown - nature of mind comes to the surface. You are about to do something but then you start to think about it, analyze about it and suddenly what was simple thing starts to look very difficult & complicated. This will keep happening again and again the whole life unless the whole procedure is realized. So what happens when you see all that and mind doesn't get involved anymore in the process? Then you just jump into unknown. There's no fear & hesitation & worrying because all those things belong to the mind. There's just full acceptance. Whatever comes, comes. And everything is always right.

We find it hard to jump because we are so used to do this thinking process. We are so used consider things, evaluate them. We are taught that everything should be thought carefully so we don't make any mistakes. It's actually just the opposite. Thinking creates problems, classifies things as mistakes and does not help us anyhow. Thinking is never solution to anything because problem and solution is just continuous movement of thought. Of course occasionally we need the mind and we need to think to survive in this world but other than that...jump, jump, JUMP!

We have a legend. Anyone who dares to jump from the mountain, God will grant his wish. Long ago, a young man's parents were ill, so he jumped. He didn't die. He wasn't even hurt. He floated away, far away, never to return. He knew his wish had come true. If you believe, it will happen. The elders say, "A faithful heart makes wishes come true."
~Lo in Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon

Words

Words,
I speak no words.
What can I say?
I left my voice outside the sama.
Feel, Dance, Whirl,
Love, Breathe,
Be….
I watch my bliss, from outside.
This body, that holds, my self,
Like the skin of a drum
Holds sound, reverberates.
Spinning in the arms
Of a presence,
Longing, longing
For sound and breath
And dance to be one.
Yearning, for there to be no I
No word.
Just the silence of the Universe
Spinning, whirling,
In slow kaleidoscopic motion,
Like the sun and the stars,
In the dance of love.
~Rumi

For You

You had your visions.
I had my dreams.
We both knew
On our own way
All along
That someday,
Eventually,
Day would come -
Our paths would cross.

Sea and forest,
Desert and mountain
Melting together
Into something new,
Into something mysterious,
Into something sacred.
Into the One.

So strange;
Warm and wavy,
Wondrous and wonderful
Why to describe?
You know the feeling
You share it.

Connection

I'm quite out of words here. One funny coincidence is that this is 100^th entry to my blog. There's this old saying (which is considered as cliché by many) that we will meet "the right one" when we least expect it. Well, I was already finished with expectations. I had already stopped believing, hoping, dreaming that someone special would enter into my life. If we exclude my two previous girlfriends, I had met some nice people who under other circumstances might have been titled as "special" but there was always something missing. If we see ourselves as pieces to the puzzle - pieces never truly fit into each other. Also I was doing fine alone and there was no longer this pain of not being with someone. That's why it was perfect setting to let someone into my life and to enter into someone's life. There was no desperation anymore, no fear, no such desire as there had been. It was beautiful that we both were like this - different in some ways but tied together by something deeper, which I can’t really express with words.

Now a new adventure has begun. It's incomparable with previous adventures - hero is not the same and princess is different as well. I don't know what will happen next and I'm not worried about it. I don't know if this adventure will last a moment or lifetime but I do know that it has been, it is, and it will be very harmonious, joyful and beautiful journey.

When I wrote earlier about seven spiritual characters, who I have enjoyed most, one of the named characters was Richard Bach. In that entry I gave a quote from him and here’s again a part of that quote as I cannot say it any better:

For me, a soulmate is one with whom we've made a mutual decision before the beginning of any life experience, with whom we have an agreement to meet in spacetime and demonstrate for each other the best we know about sharing love.

In the highest sense we're all soulmates, one to another, we're all reflections of one light. But the highest sense renders the word impractical on our worlds of make-believe, and I resolved to lower the vibrations of my definition to embrace at least one and at most a very few soulmates in any focus of consciousness I call a lifetime.

Soulmates are not images of religious custom or cultural institution, of age or gender. Marriage does not define a soulmate, nor divorce dissolve one. No earthside connection affects that bond. We recognize each other when we meet by signals arranged at a time and place we half-remember from old dreams. The curve of a smile, fragments of shared memories, a phrase that two minds speak at just the same instant. And then we begin the dance we asked of each other before the music of time was written, and enter upon the lives we've customized for our education and our delight.

Exposed

For some of us meeting a new person is always a difficult task. We have built walls around us, fortresses to make us distant, unreachable and therefore invulnerable. We wear masks, play roles and stay in shadows as long as we are ensured that it’s ok to step into the light. That’s one of the reasons why I don’t believe in first impressions. Walls must be lowered, defenses broken before there can be real contact between persons. And since we cannot directly destroy those barriers of another, some patience, curiosity and clear-sightedness is needed to deal with it. However when it happens, if it happens, it is scenery of great beauty to see to see those walls crumble, to surrender…